20 week scan and deciding against finding out the sex

It's hard to believe that in 20 weeks (if all goes 'to plan') that we will have a newborn in the house! In seems ages ago that I was battling with really horrible sickness and nausea, I now feel a bit more 'me' again despite sharing my stomach area with another little life! The energy levels are still lagging behind, but I can deal with that, I'd rather feel tired than ill any day!

Today we had our long awaited 20 week scan-I have found it quite funny how many times we've been asked if we will find out the sex in the last couple of months and even funnier when they get almost annoyed (in a joking way) when we say we weren't going too!

It was wonderful to see our baby wriggling around on the screen again, and amazing to see how much it has grown, thankfully all was OK with baby and it's growing nicely etc. We definitely have another feisty one, it was very, very wriggly and I certainly felt (and saw) a few kicks and punches which was quite funny and amazing at the same time. Baby kept trying to squirm away when the lady was trying to get the facial shots/measurements and that bit was slightly painful when she was prodding deep into my side, baby wasn't playing ball and then refused to move much after wriggling non stop the previous few minutes! It was a bit of a shame to not see the whole face like we had with Alex, but we managed a side view and then one from the nostrils down!

It was funny because James half way through said "shall we?" referring to finding out baby's sex, and although the impatient part of me really did want to know now...and despite me and James trying to discretely (or maybe not quite so) guess from the scan, I we decided not to and to keep it a surprise for when baby is born!

Nothing could beat the feeling I felt when I was first handed Alex over to me after giving birth to him, if I remember rightly the first thing I delightedly said was "it's a boy" with a huge smile on my face after all the waiting and guessing for me, James and everyone else. I want to feel this again, as I am pretty sure I don't want to be pregnant again so will never get the experience to feel this elated again, it is probably the best feeling in the world, and I can't wait to experience it again around 20 weeks time and find out if this bundle of joy is a pink or blue one :)