I have always been quite an anxious person from a young age, and no matter what I do I don't think that will ever change. It frustrates me so much as I think it holds me back a lot, I have no idea what causes these anxious feelings which makes it even worse. I have fears about really stupid things like...
Eating out: Especially at restaurants, the posher they are the more anxious I feel, the bigger the meal the more anxious I feel. I even get like this around peoples houses too and will purposely try and avoid any situation that I have to eat at restaurants or just opt no to eat. It makes no sense but I remember never eating much at friends houses when I was of primary school age, apparently I never used to eat my lunch when I first started school too...(I don't remember that though). This puts such a strain on me as no one really 'gets' it, and most social meet ups revolve around eating out, my fiancée hates it too as he loves eating out!
Getting lifts of people: I always get anxious before being picked up by anyone, not sure if this has stemmed from being ill in my mother in law's (to be) car when I was pregnant. Probably the most embarrassing thing that's ever happened to me. I hated being pregnant-it wasn't kind to me! So now I am always paranoid mainly form that one thing!
Heights: Probably a bit more of a normal fear now compared to the others! But yeah I can't go up close to the edge of things with a height (or even things with not much of a height to be honest)!
Fear of the unknown: And obviously I fear of things that may not happen but could happen, like serious illness within the family, sudden accidents, money problems getting much worse etc. But I don't really want to think too much about stuff like that.
So there you are that's me, an anxious time bomb. I hate it, I'm embarrassed by it, but not much I can do about it :(
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