Since our holidays I have felt a bit down, moody, and very irritable but for no good reason. Nothing has happened and I am pretty sure it's not just my 'hormones'.
I just feel like I am going no where at moment, I have a HUGE list of things to do and none of it is getting done, I want to get out and do things but but don't feel confident on my own with Alex at the moment as I am really struggling to push him along in the pushchair and get about at the moment (I don't drive) as sometimes I do still get dizzy spells. We haven't even decided on any names for the baby yet, and when I ask James he just says " we have plenty of time" like there is no urgency...it's the same with the list of DIY we have to do before baby comes along too! I know he's busy and shattered when he comes in, but I just want a few things sorted around the house as it's driving me mad, especially being here most days staring at the same four walls!
I am also really craving starting up making some craft things to sell, but can't afford the bits I want to be able to make them, and I also have no idea how you go about selling your own products. I have spent far too much time online trying to make sense of it but my baby brain just isn't having any of it, and then I seem to drift over to Pinterest where my craft and Christmas idea boards are over spilling with things to do, but mainly with objects I don't have! Just wondering if anyone knows who reads my blog, if you want to sell handmade things do you have to set up as a business and buy insurance etc, or can you just make and sell as long as you inform the tax office?
At least next week we should hopefully be getting some new Pax wardrobes from Ikea for our bedroom, which should hopefully free up some space in our small house (although I am sure they will soon fill up). We are hoping to to move all of James' clothes and stuff from his cupboard in the hallway so then that can be used for household things and possibly babies/Alex's things at a later date. I can't wait to get started on sorting things out though I have been desperate to do so the last couple of weeks (I am a bit sad and like to organise and sort...especially when pregnant) but can't do so until the wardrobes are up! It will be good to finally have our room properly finished after decorating it a couple of months ago.
Alex has also been a nightmare recently, I think he is bored of mainly being at home all the time and therefore a bit bored of me, I still don't have the energy to do much with him which is really frustrating me as I feel I am just being a rubbish Mother and letting Cbeebies take over a little bit too much! Since coming back from holiday bedtimes have been such a struggle and we keep having tantrums about it, and lots of mini tantrums in the day too over silly things, we even had a 5am tantrum last night which is something I haven't had to deal with for such a long time!
So yeah, just a bit fed up of my mind wanting to do things, but my body failing me. I need more energy!!