I can lose my temper quite fast, and can have quite a short fuse.
I am also a worrier, I am pretty much constantly worrying about some thing or another.
On top of James working pretty much every hour of the week and the arrival of Sam I have found simple day to day tasks are getting on top of me, some days/weeks I can be fine, others not quite so.
Last week James said he was going to start a 3rd job doing take away deliveries Tuesday and Friday evenings, meaning we'd only get Monday evenings and a few hours together on Saturday and Sunday. I think this is what tipped me over the edge.
Especially as the reason is because he's got to pay off some money which I didn't even know he still had to pay as I thought it had been sorted ages ago...apparently he'd been thinking his pay would go up from his main job with his parents (but we won't go into that).
I have been so worried this week too as my period was (and still is late), so worried I took a test which luckily is negative. As much as I think I'd love another child, I just don't think I could right now, I'm not ready, our house is too small, and financially we couldn't afford another either. Also I'd be annoyed as we have been safe (sorry too much info)!
But now I am worrying whether that was a true result, as I have never been this late before, even though we have been safe I am still paranoid it has failed us. But typically the more I worry the more likely I will be late!
Tonight I looked at symptoms of stress and I have more of the symptoms than I thought I'd have:
|Stress Warning Signs and Symptoms|
|Cognitive Symptoms||Emotional Symptoms|
|Physical Symptoms||Behavioral Symptoms|
I have been eating so much more these last few months, I'm quite pessimistic, feeling lonely, overwhelmed, always procrastinate rather than do, always anxious, and my memory and concentration is awful these days.
I also have a stubborn patch of eczema on my hand that seems to be getting worse rather than better-which I also have found can be related to stress.
Tonight was the most stressed I have felt for a long time, a teething Sam all day, screaming most the afternoon, then I put the boys in the bath and could hear it pouring out onto the floor- our bath crack finally gave in-just before James was going out with his brothers and Dad which he never gets a chance to do. I got the biggest stomach ache afterwards which I am also sure was down to stress.
I'm giving it a week before I book an appointment I think, but hate the doctors with a passion, I never feel I can properly talk to them and always forget what I am going to say. But definitely need to get second opinion.
In meantime, how do you like to de-stress and relax?