I aspire to be someone I am currently not...
I would love to have a bit of a career that I enjoy and be proud of.
Ideally I would like my own craft business and make lots of pretty things for a living. However I just lack the motivation to do it and make it happen. Plus I just wouldn't know where to start. But I really wish I could bring more of an income in to the household, as James works so much for me and Alex and I always feel like I don't do enough.
I would love to be a Mummy that gets really hands on and do loads of fun things.
But I hate mess, and Alex gets bored of things so easily which doesn't make all the effort into setting something up seem worth while. Sometimes I feel like I am not the Mummy I could/should be. I really thought I would have more patience with lots of creative fun but when it's you that has to tidy it up all the time some of the fun gets taken out.
I just wish that I could give myself a big kick up the bum and start making something of myself. Don't get me wrong I love being a full time Mummy but when people ask about what I do otherwise and I say I work in the stockroom of a shop for a few hours a week, it's like "Oh...really". I always seem to find it hard to find the balance between playing with Alex/creating something/housework/time with Alex would love to know how some people do it. If anyone has any tips on that I would be very grateful.
Perhaps I should listen to this quote, every year (usually after Christmas) I say "i'm going to make stuff to sell this year". The look on James' face each year I say it...so far he's winning as I haven't made anything.